Twenty Years Ago…..#wordsmatter

20 years ago, I was a naive and hyper-sensitive college girl who used to get hurt by simple things.

20 years ago, I believed true love existed.

20 years ago, I was innocent and loyal.

20 years ago, I used to be possessive of my friends.

20 years ago, I believed that friends are forever and they never leave you.

20 years ago my best friend from school suddenly realized that I was boring.

20 years ago my friends didn’t like hanging out with me.

20 years ago, I believed that promises are true and meant to be kept.

20 years ago, I was shy and lacked confidence.

20 years ago, I was scared to take risks and always followed the rules.

20 years ago, I used to cry in silence.

20 years ago I was grieving the death of my Mom.

20 years ago, I felt like the ugliest girl on Earth.

20 years ago, my classmates thought I was a sad girl.

20 years ago, I was a clingy girl who used to get anxious.

20 years ago, I was everything that I am not today.

With each passing day, I changed a bit, toughened a bit, and like Kafka’s Gregor Samsa, I metamorphosed into something else. A tougher, nastier, more confident, more lethal, more powerful, ‘metamorphosed’ version of a girl who lived twenty years ago.

I received this tag from Vinay R at I Rhyme without Reason. It’s my pleasure to pass on this tag to Reema D’Souza at The Write World. There are 29  of us on this Blog Hop and it will be spread over 3 days – 1st, 2nd and 3rd November  2019. Do follow the #WordsMatter Blog Hop and prepare to be surprised! 

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39 thoughts on “Twenty Years Ago…..#wordsmatter

  1. the bespectacled mother says:

    So, the way I get it is both of us were tragedies 20 years ago. I am gasping at the similarity of our tragic selves. Bilkul ditto. I cannot imagine but I can attempt to understand how difficult that phase must have been for you after losing your mother, your best friend of many years distancing from you because you were boring. I hope she follows you somewhere to see what a fabulous human being you are today and what tales you weave 🙂

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  2. Jyothi says:

    I am glad I got to meet this metamorphosed version of you. It must have been tough losing your mother at that age. Hugs to you. We learn, we grow and we change. That’s how life is supposed to be.

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  3. Shilpa Garg says:

    Aah! The college years!! I can relate to this. We all have come a long way, won many battles and overcame a lot of challenges and all these have shaped us into what we are today! Got to know a bit more about you through this post. More power to you, Balaka!

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  4. Parul Thakur says:

    You were you, then and now. And you matter. Time has taught all of us a lot of things and we are who we are cos of that. We needed those experiences to become a stronger version of ourselves. You are beautiful inside out, Balaka. I am glad I know you.

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  5. Obsessivemom says:

    Aw it seems to have been a tough phase in your life Balaka. Isn’t it wonderful how we leave the difficult times behind and move on to find a happier, more confident self. I cannot even begin to imagine what it must have been like to lose your mother. Hugs to you Balaka and cheers to the way you’ve picked yourself up and turned your life around.

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    • Balaka says:

      it was tough losing my Mom, however, it also taught me so many things that I grew up and became matured. Thanks Tulika and hugs to you too. I am happy to met you guys in life.

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  6. Sunita Saldhana says:

    I like this prompt because I think it gives all of us a chance to look back and realise that we have grown, not just in years, but in wisdom, in experience. We have grown to be better human beings and I am glad to be part of your journey

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    • Balaka says:

      Yes, we have grown as human beings..hopefully a better version or may be not..I miss my innocence, the ability to trust people easily, now even if I try hard I can never do that.

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  7. Shubhra Rastogi says:

    Wow, I could relate with a few. But as I look back 20 years now, I feel I have changed. Loads of power and hugs to you Balaka and hats off for standing strong at all the tragic moments in your life.

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  8. Holly Jahangiri says:

    As my kids grew up. it sometimes felt like I lost one child, only to gain another, with each passing year. We hang onto the parts of us that are most US, but we let go – or should – of the parts that don’t serve us well as we grow.

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